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Friday, August 8, 2008

Mystery Solved

For those of you that are faithful Scanlan blog readers (let's face it, not many) you will recall a previous post where I was so dying to get those Joe's Jeans by simply dropping the last 6 or 7 pounds of my 35 pound goal. First of all, thanks to all of you who gave me great dieting advice and even meal plans! (thanks Ang, you know all the tricks!) But the mystery is finally solved as to why that weight would not come off..........I am pregnant. And although my husband is going to kill me for announcing this now, I feel I had to. I am only 10 weeks along and we were going to tell people when I was 12 weeks, but I just ate a huge dinner and now look 4 months pregnant! I cannot hide this bulging buddha. I need an excuse for my now expanding waistline.

I am calling this baby our little miracle. (for those of you that know this story, skip to the end) We have always needed the Dr's help to get pregnant. I have an ongoing list of things that are wrong with my reproductive capabilities. (polycystic ovaries, fibroids, endo, don't ovualte on my own...) We were not even "trying", if you know what I mean. This baby was sent from heaven. I like to think that our little girl up there had something to do with this. She grabbed this spirit and said "get down there! those are your parents and they need you!" A visit to the doctor even had him saying that this was sent from God. (he predicts that this is a boy)
I had very mixed feelings at first. I cried. I swore. There was not a lot of joy at first. I felt like if I got excited about this baby then I was saying that everything that happened with Jessica is OK and it is over and I am OK with it. The truth is, I am not over it. I am not OK with it. I have hope, and I know this is the Lord's plan, not mine, but my heart still aches for baby Jess. Yet time has lessened the sting. I still cry for her. In a mothers weak moments, I weep. I love her and I miss her.
But it is time to grow our family. It is time to give Quinn a sibling. I know this baby will be healthy and beautiful and alas, I am feeling joyful to be bringing another spirit into our home!

12 comments:

MwH said...

Oh Em, I am so thrilled for you guys. What a beautiful post. Joes Jeans in 9 months and counting :).

Shannon said...

I still ache for Jess too. I can't bear to go a day without her necklace around my neck... but we are so excited to meet our new little cousin! YEA!!! Love you

The McKinney's said...

Emily and Jason I am so happy for you. I have been praying for you guys. As hard as it has been for you the Lord had a plan. His timing is perfect. I will be thinking about yall! Congradulations. Tammy

brittany said...

yay! I'm so happy:)

Marisa said...

This news is way better than getting Joe's Jeans! We are so excited for you!

TZ Crew said...

Em-Im glad you shared the news about your newest miracle. I am very excited for you, Jason and Quinn..who knows we may be prego at the same time...but due many months apart!

Paige said...

Very excited! That's the only reason to be happy you can't fit into those adorable jeans.

Jen said...

Congrats! I am so happy for you guys!!

zack&kami said...

Em
Your post was so sweet. As you know we are soooo excited for you and are new litte cousin to come. WE sure do love you tons. Maybe onetime we will have a baby together!!

Eric and Brooke said...

Congratulations! That is really so exciting:) Keep us updated:) xoxo, the bischoff's

Sara said...

Hooray! That news makes my day! I mean I wasn't going to say you look fat in your pictures...but...haha. JK! love you and am so happy for you!

Ben and Kimberly McEvoy said...

a very good reason to be adding pounds ;-)

I can not imagine the emotional roller coaster you deal with daily.
good luck with the pegnancy and being a mom of 2 (and 1 angel)

Kim